Uncertain reasons of joy

A small part of me knows when to step back
but most of the times I never listen to it.
I know my steps forward can never always bring me luck
but I try nevertheless with utmost conviction.

Blessed is he who cannot know what is right or wrong
because in our world of uncertainty
there is always an existential fight.
you may never know where or what you did wrong.
but deep down,u believe it or not,
u know you alone are responsible.

I try n try hard to please everyone in sight
end up failing myself
flailing arms open wide.
I go ahead barge full steam.
and when I have crossed the line
I am sorry more than i have ever been.

"A little gesture goes a long way" 'they' say
I dunno where 'they' came from
because i find all the words there to be astray.

But at the end of every trip
I find time to look back.
and laughter comes gushing forth somehow
whether i did wrong or right.
The delight is unbounded.
The reason is still unknown.
All i know is I am ready
for my next trip that's in store.