7/27/11

Growing up

Its been quite a while now. Quite a while that am "growing up". The whole process is so complicated, with twists and turns everywhere. Why couldn't it have been a simple straight road? But accepting everything without any other options, i understand it is part of the whole package. There is no way out. Watching films, reading books gave us dimensions in hypernumbers to look forward to. But there is just one way to look. All those stories, the songs are just to help us along the way, a kind of a guide.

I landed a job at Tech Mahindra on the 13th of June,2011. Since then, life has been ultrasmooth somehow. There isn't any threat of eminent exams, no constant bickering with parents, no filling out applications. after 17 years of academics, this does feel rewarding most definitely. But then again, a sense of responsibility, fulfillment, nervousness, apprehension, anxiety, happiness are all mixing, meddling and swirling together to form a very large imaginary incomprehensible mass inside my brain. I am not confused anymore that I know. This is suddenly a new feeling. I now know that when I go out now, I will have acredit card in my wallet, and that very wallet which was once almost empty all the time but filled with scraps of paper, tickets, and other odds and ends will now have bills from shops, cards, ID's, photographs etc etc. That simple little wallet will grow up suddenly too. It all feels so sudden and weird.

My life has been branching out too increasingly. And with all the expanding, I find less and less time for all the people in it. True that I spend a lot of my time at home, but then again I guess it's not just me. Old friends, new friends, keeping track of them all is difficult. Life is taking strange turns. I spend time at the bank, I have to do my own shopping, my parents aren't complaining when I stay out late, they don't have a problem with me watching movies, going out everyday. I know I yearned for all that to stop but I think I kinda miss all that. Its human nature, I guess, to stay in that safe zone; familiarity with the surroundings topping everything else. I never ever in the weirdest, most extreme,wildest of my dreams thought I would miss having school/college, stuff to do, study, listen to parents screaming at me. It just doesn't make sense or does it??
:) :)

7/12/11

Jingle Bells

Well, out of boredom, and amidst a writer's block, this is what I came up with. :P Here is a retake on Jingle Bells. :D

N.B. : Just pronounce Ferrari as Ferraray


Dashing through the snow
In a blood red Ferrari
O'er the fields we go
Laughing all the way
Girls all wearing bling
Getting spirit-high
What fun it is to laugh and sing
Any song tonight

Oh, jingle bells, jingle bells
Jingle all the way
Oh, what fun it is to ride
In a blood red Ferrari
Jingle bells, jingle bells
Jingle all the way
Oh, what fun it is to ride
A girl in a Ferrari


A day or two ago
I thought I'd take a ride
And soon all the Fanny Brights
Were seated by my side
The night was Christmassy
everything was to top notch
Till one miss fanny bright
Spilled over all the scotch.

Oh, jingle bells, jingle bells
Jingle all the way
Oh, what fun it is to ride
In a blood red Ferrari
Jingle bells, jingle bells
Jingle all the way
Oh, what fun it is to ride
A girl in a Ferrari

7/1/11

Somewhere

Yes somewhere when u found me
I took to u like a blanket on a cold cold night
It was there that i knew what to do about u.

Hushed up smiles, and joy unbound made way through time
while time tried in vain to catch up with us.

Summers spent on swings
listening to guitar making way for frost.
Winters abuzz with people on the street
made us desolate to lost.

In spite of the little joys,
the longing lingered on.
A heartless animal like it seemed to power on.

Rains collected sheets of vapor on the glass,
gave us slates to write us upon.
drops of sweat united
till the heart inside was torn.

Besides that scarf u wore the other day
ur sweater is still with me
the purple one with the whites drawn in
that u wore the day i set u free.

Call upon the wine to stir the night up
a bit of cheese and a rose will do to light up ur face.
We'll wear sunglasses and strut about heroes.
Dangerous in the night to each other,
Yet wanted in a way unexplained.
Soothed by your touch,
you're electrified by my feel,
There are stories that will keep on coming
By the first kiss did we seal.

Scared and Safe

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