11/4/18

Fork

Why do I care if I find out you didn't get enough sleep last night?
Do I need to feel needed
and hence, keep inserting myself into your life?
Or do I actually want you so much that
I don't want anything going wrong in your life?
You are probably just looking for a hand
I came looking for a heart.
We don't have what it takes to make it till the end.
You will never be complete,
you are too far behind.
I will never be complete,
I am too far ahead.
There is never any white without the black;
they need to coexist if you really want me.

11/2/18

Itch

I don't hold myself back anymore
You did tell me to jump into the fray
"It's all about change" you said;
"being who you are, not being who others wanted you to be".

Now I am who I was "supposed" to be.
Why don't you like me anymore?
I can't retrace my steps; I have come too far.
I did turn around to look at the road I left behind
but I don't really want to go back that way.

I like who I am now.
It's a pity you couldn't accommodate
the change you wanted in the first place.
Like an itch that goes away
if you ignore it,
ignore me now till you get used to my
new self dissolving into normalcy.


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