Growing up

Its been quite a while now. Quite a while that am "growing up". The whole process is so complicated, with twists and turns everywhere. Why couldn't it have been a simple straight road? But accepting everything without any other options, i understand it is part of the whole package. There is no way out. Watching films, reading books gave us dimensions in hypernumbers to look forward to. But there is just one way to look. All those stories, the songs are just to help us along the way, a kind of a guide.

I landed a job at Tech Mahindra on the 13th of June,2011. Since then, life has been ultrasmooth somehow. There isn't any threat of eminent exams, no constant bickering with parents, no filling out applications. after 17 years of academics, this does feel rewarding most definitely. But then again, a sense of responsibility, fulfillment, nervousness, apprehension, anxiety, happiness are all mixing, meddling and swirling together to form a very large imaginary incomprehensible mass inside my brain. I am not confused anymore that I know. This is suddenly a new feeling. I now know that when I go out now, I will have acredit card in my wallet, and that very wallet which was once almost empty all the time but filled with scraps of paper, tickets, and other odds and ends will now have bills from shops, cards, ID's, photographs etc etc. That simple little wallet will grow up suddenly too. It all feels so sudden and weird.

My life has been branching out too increasingly. And with all the expanding, I find less and less time for all the people in it. True that I spend a lot of my time at home, but then again I guess it's not just me. Old friends, new friends, keeping track of them all is difficult. Life is taking strange turns. I spend time at the bank, I have to do my own shopping, my parents aren't complaining when I stay out late, they don't have a problem with me watching movies, going out everyday. I know I yearned for all that to stop but I think I kinda miss all that. Its human nature, I guess, to stay in that safe zone; familiarity with the surroundings topping everything else. I never ever in the weirdest, most extreme,wildest of my dreams thought I would miss having school/college, stuff to do, study, listen to parents screaming at me. It just doesn't make sense or does it??
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